Weight, Sex, and Marriage

When hubby and I first got married, he was nice for the first while. Then he became irritable, then tired all the time. All he wanted to do after work was sit on the couch and watch tv until bed. After a while, I essentially felt alone. At the same time, I had a really demanding job where I worked the afternoon/evening shift, and weekends as well. We rarely saw each other, when we did I was stressed out. I steadily gained weight. We grew farther and farther apart. We fought a lot. Instead of enjoying our time together, we hurled accusations at each other. I decided to change careers, so I left to go back to school for a year and a half. Part of my decision to leave to go to school was that I couldn't stand living with him anymore. Every day we would fight, he would blow up at me, and I would cry. When I was at school, we still rarely saw each other (every other weekend). When we did, I was still stressed out, thinking about school, but he was nice to me. Actually nice to me, like when we were dating. Now I have decided to forget the whole school thing because it is too hard being away from home, even though at home, all we did was fight. I thought, "OK, things are getting better, it's ok to go back." Around midterm of my last semester, my hubby told me that the reason he has avoided my repeated begging and pleading for sex for the past year and a half was due to my weight gain from 135 lb to 190 lb. I was devastated. Absolutely devastated. Before that, I thought "we may have our problems, but I know he loves me." His revelation took that belief away. I no longer thinks he loves me. I know for a fact (he told me) he thinks I am physically disgusting. He is embarrassed to be seen with me. He does not introduce me at social or work events. He is withdrawn, except to nitpick and criticize me for anything and everything. He openly checks out other women and talks about what he would like to do sexually to them. He wants to have a threesome. I think it is an excuse to have sex with another woman, but with my 'permission.' He would rather masturbate than have sex with me. I have essentially given up. I don't care anymore. When he yells in my face, criticizing me, I just laugh at him. Then he threatens to hit me. I love it when he leaves the house to do errands, because I get to have some alone time. That's when I binge: 6 donuts, or 4 drumstick ice creams, or a box of cookies, anything carb-y. I don't bother telling him I love him anymore.

What do you guys think? I just want to hear an outside opinion.

Mon. Jul 13, 12:37am

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