Very Unhappy, Am going insane....

Well I started at 150, worked out and restricted like crazy for about a month and lost 8 pounds.
Now over the past few days I can't stop eating. I haven't weighed myself yet, but I can tell I've gained most of the weight back.
I know I should be able to get over this and start again, but I'm depressed, terribly depressed over it. I feel anxious like I'm going to cry all the time. I've been sleeping in my clothes without even changing into pjs. I spend 20 minutes at the mirror forcing myself to at least bursh my hair a LITTLE before work. I feel like I want to take a pair of scissors and stab myself repetitvley for being such a failure. I hate myself and am very edgy. How do you pull out of moods like this and get back on the horse?

Tue. May 6, 3:23pm

Im sure most people on here have been in a similare position sweetie. I know I have. And what I honestly did? I got myself my favorite takeaway as a final blowout, so to speak. Then the next morning I did a decent workout. After I had worked out I didnt really want the crap as I didnt want to spoil it. Ialso realised I was bingeing as I was depriving myself and so every Friday dinner me and my hubby and little boy go out to eat and I have whatever meal I want regardless of calories. Im 132lbs and still lose pound a week doing this.

Chin up hunni. It wont last forever and you will not have put 8lbs back on. Do not weigh yourself until you have been back on track for a couple of weeks.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008, 3:28 PM

ugh. been there, done that.
First a couple questions...
1. Are you PMS-ing?
2. Are you pregnant?
If you answer yes to one of those, it could just be your hormones. PMS-ing? Ride it out. Regroup and get back on track as fast as possible. Pregnant? Stop dieting; start eating healthy!
If you're just in an emotional slump (it's ridiculous how often this happens to me!), then you need to FORCE yourself out of it! Tell yourself you don't want to feel this way. Remind yourself what a really great job you did your first month! Tell yourself you can do it again - - and you know you can because you already have!!
Don't stab yourself with scissors. Trust me - that will do nothing for your appearance. Rent a funny movie, watch America's Funniest Home Videos, read something funny in Reader's Digest, watch some comedians. Find something that will make you laugh. You deserve to laugh and feel better - and it really DOES help!
And if it's too overwhelming to get fully back on the wagon, pick ONE thing - exercise, drink water, only healthy snacks - something! And who knows - maybe you just burnt yourself out last time. Allow yourself to go at a slower pace this time. And it's okay to start over! Go you!!

Tuesday, May 6, 2008, 3:38 PM

OP here

Hi again, I've been watching this thread like a fiend, he he.

You guys are right, this is caused in part by depriving myself.
I think it is also cause by a little renewed depression at my job where I feel "locked in" for the time being and has a real BULLYING / DOG EAT DOG atmosphere, as if I'm back in some horrid middle school nightmare.

I like the idea of eating one final thing and then FORCING the workout. Also, I can not weigh myself for at least 2 weeks, because a weigh in any time soon will probably totally crush me.

ps, not pregnant that goodness, and never understand my hormones anymore since going on Seasonal, but I am having a bad break out so something must be up.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008, 3:42 PM

I am going through a version of this - just with different time frames. I am just riding it out and trying to avoid an ALL OUT binge today (which happened last night).
That and praying it is hormores that will pass.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008, 3:56 PM

We can all be very hard on ourselves :(

no advice really ... just sending you a cyber hug !!!

Tuesday, May 6, 2008, 3:57 PM

OP - you sound better already! See what a little support can do for your morale?? : )

Tuesday, May 6, 2008, 4:28 PM

This morning, I felt very edgy and wondered if I was experiencing low blood sugar from dieting. When I realized that I was considering what to throw across the room, I decided to try writing my thoughts on a piece of paper. I thought I was going to write about a particular situation, but as my thoughts spilled onto the paper, I realized I was really upset about something else, and that my upset was very reasonable and understandable. Seeing the problem on paper helped me work out a better solution.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008, 5:27 PM

Yes, writing things out really does help too.
Your work environment sounds really crappy. Having to spend 8 hours a day in that environment can really suck the life and energy out of you. No advice, just wish I could help:-)

Tuesday, May 6, 2008, 7:12 PM

I throw stuff...

but crunching some carrots (as angrily as you wish) can help ease some frustration. Seriously!

Wednesday, May 7, 2008, 10:14 AM

I am going through the exact same thing but I have a really hard time avoiding the scale. I know I need to though. I know one thing that helps, knowing I;m not alone...YAY

Wednesday, May 7, 2008, 7:30 PM

I can totally relate. I am quite the binge eater---correction---I was quite the binge eater. Now I'm getting healthy. The night I truly hit rock bottom, I cried and cried to my boyfriend and all I could think about is, why, why, do I do this to myself? All I want to do is lose weight yet I keep binging. So you know what I did? I made the decision to stop. Right then and there. Because mostly all the cravings I give in to is due to that "oh I shouldn't...but I really want it..." that sort of hesitation. But not any more. I don't hesitate. I just tell myself no.

So anyways, what I'm trying to say is that is you truly want to make a change, you can do it. Believe in yourself. Nourish your body. AND SLEEP. My thoughts and prayers for you.

Thursday, May 8, 2008, 8:56 AM

I gained ten pounds in the 3 months that I was on Seasonal. I have been off of it for about 5 weeks and still haven't lost the weight, but I am still trying. I have heard that many woman have gained weight with the Seasonal.

Thursday, May 8, 2008, 10:48 AM

been there too many times!

I know it sucks- but seriously we are ONLY human. I have figured out what foods my BODY likes and it sounds strange, but it works to fuel your body with what IT wants for a day. My body holds water weight so I stop adding salts and sugars and eat "clean" for a day- like just fruits, water, and GREEN veggies. Once my body is done being "angry" with me then it will relax and miraculously a couple pounds will fall off. The depression is the toughest one to conquer but maybe if you try remembering how GOOD it felt to make the progress you did, challenge yourself to recreate exactly the same situation again it will help? Let me know how it goes!

Thursday, May 8, 2008, 11:03 AM

I think we all have those times.
What I try and do is remind myself why I am doing this. And I have to say the only time I have been successful is this time and I believe the reason is I am doing it for me. To get what I want out of life and not to live up to someone elses standards. Though unfortunately that stuff still runs through your brain.
My brain anyway.
But my advise if I had any would be to watch the negative self talk. Listen to what you say to yourself and start being nicer. Think about what you would say to someone in your possition and say it to yourself. You deserve a break just as much or more than the next person.
be kind to yourself and love yourself.
only good can come from it.

Thursday, May 8, 2008, 3:38 PM

What is "the Seasonal"?

Sometimes when you are "on a diet" you restrict yourself too much. That can cause all sorts of havoc. Better to cut back a little on the unhealthy things and add more healthy things to each meal. If you try to do it a little at a time, it canbecome habit and not cause any problems.

SUch as:
If you're used to eating 2 pieces of bread with a sandwich, make a folded sandwich with one piece of bread and add extras to the meal like a pear or apple and a side salad or cup of soup.

Don't say that something (or anything) is off limits or forbidden. You can eat anything you want -- in moderation. If you love chocolate, buy a bag of Hershey minis. You can have up to 4 of them as a snack and they only count as 1 pt in WW or 1 serving on many other programs. If you love ice cream, buy a set of those tiny ice cream dishes they use in restaurants. The pretty silver colored ones with the way edges. You can have 1 scoop of ice cream in them a couple times a week.

Try using salad plates instead of dinner plates. The smaller the plate is, the less food you can put on it. And full of food, it appears to be plenty.

Mentally divide your plate into 4ths. Fill 1/2 the plate with veggies or a salad, 1/4 with a protein or our choice and 1/4 with a carb of your choice.

You might find that this works much better for you than an organized diet. Some people just can't be on diets. But if they make small changes a little at a time, they can be really successful at changing the way they eat and dropping excess pounds.

Good luck!

Saturday, May 10, 2008, 8:51 AM

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