Confessions
1. I haven't been exercising at all.
2. I have been eating a LOT.
3. I have been avoiding weighing myself.
And, of course, I've been increasingly unhappy over the last few weeks, to the point where last night as I was lying awake in bed, I had a very stern talk with myself. It was part pep talk: I know I can get myself back on track, I've done it countless times before; I know how to eat healthy; I haven't fallen completely off the wagon - I still haven't eaten chocolate or French fries; I know I can get myself back to looking the way I want to look, etc. It was also part stern: I have to drink less Diet Coke and more water; I can still find the time to exercise even though I'm busier now; it may be the new medication that made my weight initially jump up a few pounds, but that doesn't mean I can't get it down again.
Anyway, I'll make this quick because I have to get to the gym (!), but today is the day I'm turning it around. My friend John and I have yet another new challenge: we were all out on Friday night, and at one point he mentioned to me that he wants to lose about 20 pounds before his friend's wedding in a couple of months. He suggested we do a two-for-one challenge: he loses two pounds for every one of mine. So this morning I told him I accept the challenge. I weighed in at 164.5, so my goal is 154.5. I'm just waiting for him to get back to me on our goal date, because I forget when he said his friend's wedding is.
I am sorry that I haven't had more time to post, but things have just been so crazy. This new school year is going to be very time-consuming, I can tell already. My log is going to be my first priority, because I find that when I start to slip, I stop wanting to log, and that's a huge red flag. I'm definitely going to work harder on actively logging, even if I can't do it until the end of the day.